As we seek the Lord and desire to grow in Him, He is faithful and will continue to show us things that we need to surrender to Him - things that need to change. Foe me, this week God has been showing me things that need to GO.
I don't think I need to expound on the negative effects of bitterness, or how it has NO benefit for our lives. Instead, I want to share that this week God has shown me a root of bitterness in my life - from a while ago. And then he showed me another - and another - and another. Some of these took root over 10 years ago - some more recent.
So why have I held onto them? Because these people brought hurt and pain to my life. Pain that reached deep into the depths of my heart. Instead of allowing Christ to heal my pain, I chose to bury it. It was already deep - so I just left it there. As long as I don't think about it, it doesn't seem to bother me. But when I think about the situation, the pain begins again. But it's deep enough that I just cover it up with negative words and thoughts toward situations and people that deserve the same mercy that I have been given.
So today, I reflect on how great and merciful the Lord is.
Psalm 139:1
You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
and you know me.
Psalm 139:23-24
Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
and lead me in the way everlasting.
the Lord searches every heart and understands every desire and every thought. If you seek him, he will be found by you; but if you forsake him, he will reject you forever. 1 Chronicles 28:9
I know, my God, that you test the heart and are pleased with integrity. All these things I have given willingly and with honest intent. 1 Chronicles 29:17
God, I thank you for knowing me better than I know myself. Thank you for revealing these feelings of bitterness that I have in my heart. Thank you for healing me, and for helping me to let go of things I have held onto for so long. I love you, Lord.
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